This entry contains loads of spelling misstakes and terrible grammar. I don't care. I wrote it when I was drunk, and lost my thought half way through it. It's a mess, and a direct look into my state of mind. Personally I never plan on viewing this entry again, but feel free to read it. Just beware of the extreme missuse of and total disrespect for ( Read more... )

Just a quick question;

Am I forever doomed to fall in Lust with people called Emma? Just looking at my history you would think that was the case. This time, she is a lesbian, but a taken one at that.

( Ramblings of a sexual and psycotic nature, this way )

As usual, I've been up way too long and was going to sleep. Or at least try to sleep. I just had to watch, or really fast forward the latest ep of Glee. And it was so bad I had to write down some thoughts.

( Spoilers and Ranting )

( The usual crap about my economy )

The last months, Iv'e started to feel almost bohemic. Not that I live in a attic in Paris and drink cheap red wine. But I do sleep on a matress in a house I share with two, sometimes four other people. I have almost no money, just enough for rent and internet. I'm unemployed and have not been grocery shopping since June. And today I spent my last ( Read more... )

 I'm so angry now a days that's it's suffocating me. Either I'm manically happy or so angry I just want to scream at random people and kill something. I'm not overreacting, it really is that bad. And now a doctor I have not even met wants to put me on anti-depressing medicine and two other pills. One which makes the user more angry and aggressive. ( Read more... )

To be honest, I don't know how much longer I can do this. How much longer I can go on. Even through I'm very social and have lots of friends and do stuff every day. Every day, more and more it feels like I'm slipping more and more. How much fight do I have in me? I can't answer that. I wish I was brave enough to end it all but after two failed ( Read more... )

I'm still awake, even through I should be asleep because I have to get up in three hours. So, what better things are there to do besides having a litte heart to heart? Sleep is for the weak! Or for people able to actually being blessed with regular sleeping patterns ( Read more... )

For fuck sake! Why can't I stop complaining and whining about how bad my life is and how sad I am? It's not like I have a frakking reason to be deperessed ( Read more... )